Life is a mirage...
A happy illusion to those afar
A bend on the road for those close
Seems to be just a grasp away
Try to hold and it flies further away
Life is a mirage....
Don't you see? You have your goal,
But you never behold
You lock your gaze
But feel it you cannot
Life is a mirage...
For when you behold and in happiness enshroud
Forgetting your presence in the present
Wishing for the happy illusion the mirage holds
Whilst neglecting your near and dear
Remember life does not last forever
Life is only a mirage of what you want to see...
So, being a mom, the most challenging job one can hold, you always don't have enough time for anything. And now I strongly believe that once you do find time, then your little one would have grown up! He is already 1 year + now!!! Right now smiling during his nap... ^__^
Time management is the biggest lesson i'm learning with a kid on board. Life is full of surprises and being a mom, you are never sure of ANYTHING you do with regards to your child. In short, we are always worried!! And they grow and learn new things everyday, so flexibility is the other key element. And well, regardless of what they or we do or don't do, they still grow. And how they grow depends a lot on the environment we provide for them.
Being a stay at home mom (by choice, of course), sometimes I do miss all the brain crunching at work and sometimes, I do feel I want to get back on job, but then, the more time I spend with my lil guy, the more involved I want to be with him and a part of his growth and learning process. Mother's are a child's first teacher and her lap is their nursery. No one understands a child better than their mom. It is an exhaustive job, no breaks, no vacation, no promotion. The only incentive being child's happiness, love and laughter....priceless. Oh yes, there will be crying, temper, etc. , well all a part of the package. All that said, they grow so fast, that one day they are the little bundle cuddled in your arms and a few days on, they run all around. Time sure flies....
With all due honesty when I created this blog, I thought I would at least have 1 article in a month...but alas!! No posts for 2012!!! Well..it ws a busy year and now there is a 'lil' someone in my life who keeps me busier than a bee!!!
Since I'm snow queen here, let's call him 'Ice Prince'...nope..he is totally opposite to this name...he is cute, cuddly, warm little baby and enjoys getting attention!!!
I hope to get more active here....hopefully with some interesting thoughts!!!
It's almost the end of another year...2011. Like every year, it has brought about a lot of changes, life with it's usual ups and downs, quite a lot of deaths and calamities, new inventions and so on and on....
So, what's my point in blogging about this? Nothing specific. Just some random thoughts that I'd been thinking about for quite sometime.
Regardless of how short or long your life span is, there are some people who come across your life whom you will cherish, whom you will look up to, whom you will trust, whom you will care, whom you will respect. There might only be a few people who will fall into all these categories, but there definitely will be quite a lot of people who will fall into one of these.....
We've heard of a couple of deaths of famous people this year. People who have made an impact in our life, change our mindsets, true geniuses. But they were never successful in their first attempt and if they were still alive, there would have been people still criticizing them. But now since they are dead, they only have good words. That's the sadistic nature of human beings.
I've heard about some untimely deaths this year. Some of whom I knew when I was small. Even though they weren't quite close to me, just the news of untimely death is quite shocking. I just hope and pray that their family has the courage to deal with it and move on.
Moving on is not easy. There are things and people you come across your daily life. When some of them means the quite a lot to you and there is a conflict of interest, what do you do? Just let it be? Ignore them? Talk to them about it? Well, decision is dependent on the situation. But, I only hope that God gives us enough wisdom to choose the wise action and move on, hoping and praying for the best.
Most of the major decisions in our lives are not in our hands. Fate is at the hands of God, we have the choice of action. What course do we take? What guides us through? It is all a matter of the heart. When you do anything whole-heartedly, there is always a sense of satisfaction and happiness about you. If the action was wrong, we learn from it. If it was right, our happiness will know no bounds....there will never be room for regrets. But when forced to do something, there will always be a feeling of guilt. A dark stain that becomes darker and doesn't give us a peace of mind, and before long, we begin to doubt our own self. Who are we? What is our purpose in life?
And that purpose is something we have to discover for ourselves. Attain peace of mind and never, ever forget God, the Almighty, who created us as the best of creations. To whom we will return after our transit life here on the earth. We are mere travelers, and earth is our temporary station. We still have a long journey after our death, for which we have to prepare. Are your bags ready and packed for the trip? Oh, well, none of us anticipate it. We just think that tomorrow will be another day, when we can see the sunrise. What if it is not? Are we ready for it? This is a question we must answer ourselves. I'm not going to preach, 'coz I'm still unprepared and I have to find the answers myself. Otherwise there is no meaning to it.....
The more time we have, the lazier we are... More deadlines we have, we can cram up the infinite things we have to do, in the limited time... It is always good to keep ourselves on check by maintaining deadlines And reminding ourselves that the time once lost is lost forever.
Well, this is a reminder for me and all the other lazy people around the world, who have so much valuable time in our hands and we don't understand what to do with it. What is our priority? What is the purpose of our life? Is it any good to waste time? It is more precious than money, and it slips from between fingers so fast that if we were to account what we did each second, we could have truly made it worthwhile. Anyways, this is all talk. I haven't practiced it for the past 7 months. I really have to get myself back in shape! Allah..help me and forgive me!
Having a smile on your face everyday, They think you might be a trivial person For whom life may be a joke And nothing to worry about! Oh come on! Keeping up the smile on your face Is not a trivial matter. The journey of life, What it brings forth, the unpredictable ups and downs, Nothing within your reach and in problems you will drown. The fading smile, a result of an evil eye? Tried hard to bring forth the smile, But the sadness of losing your love Overshadows the curve on your lips. The tears withheld, to keep up the strong facade, But in the end, tears fell, like an overpouring rain And swollen eyes and no more smile Just because of the love once lost....
She was at the dentist for her annual dental check up. Ever since 3 years of age she has been to the dentist, had her teeth worked on, filled, pulled, what not and now, as everyone was suggesting, the dentist also recommended, 'When she is about 15 years, she has to put braces on her teeth'. She rolled her eyes and knew that putting braces means pulling out 2-4 more teeth and lesser chocolates.
The dentist stopped for a few minutes, checked her teeth once again and was about to leave when he noticed something. 'Hey! One of your teeth is missing. The canine, on the top right side.' The doctor ushered her dad, and said, 'You see, those two are the incisors and then the pre-molars and molars, only 6 teeth on this side. The canines are missing. If it didn't grow out, it must be hidden within the gums. An X-ray should help us find out. Please take an X-ray and return after 3 days.'
'Oh God! Now what?' she thought. She knew that her teeth has always been giving her trouble, now a missing one? Is this an Enid Blyton book, 'The Mystery of the Missing Tooth'? Sounded good, now she had a story to tell and a mystery for the doctor to solve.
Three days later, they were back at the dentist after taking the X-ray. The doctor examined it and said, 'This is surprising. There is no teeth hidden in the gums. Things are safe. But I really do wonder what happened. Either you pulled your teeth out twice or the new tooth never developed. Which is a rarity. Anyways, I just wanted to ensure that things were safe for you. Good day!'
She heaved a sigh of relief. No more dental work for this year. But had the thoughts of her missing teeth stashed in her head. When she was 15, she put the braces and she only had to pull 3 of her teeth due to the existing gap on her top right side, the tooth there was exempted. The canines never grew out, nor did it cause her any trouble and the mystery remains a mystery.....
Quite often, I've opened up my blog, to begin blogging and write the thoughts that crossed my mind, a few hours ago, or a few days ago, but couldn't get the flow or the contents of what I wanted to write, except the title. So, I have quite a lot of saved posts, with just the title and to this day, some of them are haunted and some of them, which I did complete are sub-standard compared to the ideas that I had initially.
Surprisingly, most of the thoughts or ideas, come to me when I'm in the shower *rolling eyes*. Well, yes, sometimes, I would think, how much better it will be if we had a water proof laptop! Well, no, I don't like reading from the bathroom. I prefer my living room couch or bed for that. If you have followed my blog for sometime now, you must have guessed I'm quite a romantic (I don't mean romantic as in relationship, but in a dreamy sense), an occasional poet and artist. Sometimes, I just get the flow of words for the poem and I just have to sit there without thinking much and it just types out. Same goes with drawing, I just take a book and pencil and the idea for sketches come on its own. But I'm quite a novice at both, I have talent, but not quite developed. So, I can also say that the mood swings are also great. I can easily be highly elated and easily be depressed. And I've even had my biggest critic tell me that, 'most artists and poets are depressed and suicidal'! As if I wanted that!!!
Despite all this, I'm an optimist to the core and that is when I remembered a video at Ted.com by Elizabeth Gilbert on creativity. She beautifully captures the fact that creativity is something on loan for you. It comes and goes, and if you have done a masterpiece, your genie did a great job. If not it didn't show up!
You cannot blame yourself for the success and failure of your work. Just live your life by doing what you want and enjoy each moment regardless of the outcome. Talent is a gift and it is not something others can judge you for. Having a talent, developing it, trying and failing, is all a stepping stone to the next endeavor, which may or may not be a success. But if that has satisfied you, then there is nothing to worry about. Satisfaction is the hardest to obtain. People's criticism will always be there. There will be at least one person in this world whose point of view will be opposite of yours. So forget people and their criticism. Take pride in what you do. That is my advise.
Anyways, here's the link to Elizabeth Gilbert's video. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did:
First of All a BIG HELLO to everyone out there...or out here!!!
I've been thinking about revamping my blog for quite sometime. I reaaalllly wonder, when it transformed from an inspiring and motivational one to a depressing one. Well, maybe the Snow Queen's heart was frozen for a while and now since it is summer, it has molten a lil bit?? Who knows?? And, seriously, who cares?? Do you??
Well, yes, I think it is vital for a writer to bring forth all the emotions out in the articles. But to write only when going through tough times and neglecting the skill during good times will not help enhance the talent. So, be it the sun or the rain, I've decided, I'm going to get back to blogging. There are quite a lot of drafts from long time back, so I'll begin with them first and since I have all the time in the world with me, I'm going to add one more thing to my hobby list, 'Blogging', that is.
